about us

Hey again!
Its now 12.12pm. Got the boys off to school, wasnt to bad this morning. Jesse was in an ok'ish mood, he decided that he didnt want me in tears today so our screaming match only lasted an hour..

A little about Jesse. He has been dignosed with ADHD, ODD, and CD. The ADHA is hard enough to deal with on its own, but the ODD and CD make life very very difficult at times.
Underneath hes a great kid, sweet, loving and very smart. He just lacks the ability to control his impulses and to know the difference between right, wrong, good, bad. IE: Because Jess thinks starting that fire is 'fun' its ok, he doesnt see the concequences for his actions. He has a feral mouth! My god, i know im not perfect and i swear like a bloody trooper, but some of the things that come outta his mouth!!!! OMFG!
Alot of my time and energy is focused on making sure things run smoothly at home and Jess dont get to outta hand. Dealing with problem children sure has a detrmental effect on ones self asteem.

Kate, on the other hand is a great kid. She is 13, sometimes she thinks she going on 25! I cant really complain, she puts up with alot of shit from me and her brothers. I dont have the energy to spend as much time with her as i would like, but she understands.... i hope. When we do hang out, its great. Not only am i her Mum, but im her friend too.

Zac... a bucket of worms with legs! He is constantly on the go. Never slowing down, there is so many things he wants to do, see, say ... Hes a good kid, but follows Jess. Hes tried a few times the "Jesse can, why cant I?" trick with me.. but hes working out slowly that doing and saying what Jesse does is not always a good thing.

Arnold... ahhh. Hes a great guy sometimes. Other times hes a fuckwit! He works hard to provide for us, but forgets that im here, not as his servant or punching back, not here to through abuse at, or call names because he cant find a hammer....im here coz i love him... and he loves me..... i think.

Enough for now, its lunch time.
*hugs*